"Do you love yourself? I ask you this both seriously and sincerely. So do you? Are you proud of where you sit in this moment? Have you sacrificed to get here? Do you dance along to the music inside of you, or do you walk properly with the look and fear of the other? Do you direct yourself by your own volition and intuition, or do you travel down the conventional road safely in hand with man’s logic and arithmetic? These choices are for your choosing, but in order to have self-love, I believe you must have you; for how can you love what is not true? …Actually, and unfortunately, I know many people who do; for a while, until they eventually end up with so many selves they are attempting to be that they no longer know which one to love anymore. But I’m certain if you live in their world, you will never know yours—and what a shame that would be. The river of life is flowing inside of us all, but in order to ride its fiery rapids you must fully jump in and trust the energy that naturally drives you. You will not always be able to reason or rationalize your feelings and choices…well, you can try, or pay someone to try, but they will not fit into our neat and orderly worlds of convention. And why should they? Is our DNA not proof enough that we are all individuals with different make-ups? What I would like to tell you ladies and gentlemen, is your life is beyond two times two is four! So unleash the freak, jump in, become who you truly are, and live outside the borders of any normal. And don’t just open the doors, don’t just take off the hinges; tear down the entire structure! The Great Adventure is not an expedition, it is the journey through the slowly unfolding mystery of your true self; follow it—with no other goal than to burn, both hot blue and joyous red. Never forget what profound beauty and truth comes through our suffering; we must use it! Well-being through comfort and security cannot be our only goal, for that should be our last; it is death. We must do the deathless dance in the infinite cosmos! And we must always know that before you are truly capable of loving others, you must first love yourself. Learn to love yourself and the world will start turning into a better place. I believe a brighter world starts there."

"We are the seeds of the stars, and our goal as human beings is to take the galaxy of complex particles that compose our bodies and let them shine. Gloriously shine! But this land is somber, vacant of the passion for the here and now. We walk around as the silhouettes of the past or as the dispersing mist of the future. All the while there is a moment waiting there in front of our eyes that is so full of raw, virgin life—it only requires our attention, an adventurous spirit, and the right set of eyes. We have the ability to become so madly alive, but instead our lives are eaten up by worries, insecurities, measurements, past events, passionless jobs, paved paths, pumped propaganda, archaic rules, misconstrued ideas of success, other’s expectations, and empty distractions. Our lives are eaten up by nothing… We wait around hoping for the miracle that never comes, never has came, and never will come. And yet, we go to bed every night hoping, praying, desperately dreaming a change will come during our slumber to save us, only to wake up the following day to find the same monotony running lifelessly on track. We must search our souls and realize that, we are the catalyst, we are the force, we are the miracle, we are the light—and we need to look no further, and wait no longer.
     Now is the time to shine. Gloriously shine! For we will all burn out soon enough."

This is the start of my 2013.doc of writing

"If facebook, malls, cell phones, reality television, and socialite nightclubs caused an incurable cancer from overuse, the world would start looking better tomorrow."

death before death

This is the objective me.
Photo by: Dirk Mai

"Sometimes a fresh start is exactly what we need…but people often tell me how they are going to move away to some new magical city and experience and see all of these beautiful things. They go on and on about how they are going to be free and in a place where they can be happy… Well, the truth is that we cannot escape ourselves, and happiness comes from within, and freedom is in the space of your own mind, and beauty is only a perspective that you create. Wherever you are, you must nourish your own happiness, you must journey in your own mind to be free, and you must bring the perspective that finds the beauty in the place that it is. One would only be naive to think that a place, or anything but themself, would be primarily responsible for these things."